Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Life as I know it
It occurred to me today that I haven't written a posting in almost a week. I apologize for this, although not much as really happened to update you about. Life is generating its usual school pattern, class on the weekdays and find stuff to do for the weekends. Kath and I went shopping this weekend, didn't buy anything except some earrings, but it was still fun to continue to explore this spread out city I'm apart of. I continue to enjoy Riccarton Community Church and the days seem to fly by so that church comes more and more quickly, week to week. I'm going to Hamner Springs this weekend with some friends for a night, which I hope will be fun. It's the hot springs place that you can try all the different temperature pools. It's a neat little town about an hour and a half from here. School is going well, not really any work to do.
So overall, not much to report. I always have things to say, although I try to spare you my drowning on about spiritual matters and new Bible findings. I think I'm learning a great deal right now on who God is and really find meaning in studying scripture and actually knowing that it happened. That God is alive today, which I think is one of the christian's biggest questions, and He still can do everything He did and He still will, we are just the ones that have pushed Him out and made Him appear lesser than He is. I went to a small group yesterday for the church and the leaders were less than qualified to instruct. It really saddened me, and each time I would speak up most of the people in the group looked at me with eyes of confusion and bewilderment. It's a lonely state to not be understood in life as I find often, but what a great knowledge to know that God created me, knit me together in my mother's womb, and who can fathom His understanding? He knows what I'm trying to say, He knows what I so desperately want out of life. He knows one of my greatest fears is that I won't be used to fully glorify Him, that His purpose for me is not great, He knows! I've come on this journey to New Zealand to fulfill another part of my life experience and in many ways I'm better for it. I dare not act like I've gained a great deal of knowledge, because that is not the point of life, but I say that I've learned how much I have yet to learn and how long a journey I have yet to travel to gain the victory that is found in Christ Jesus alone.
So overall, not much to report. I always have things to say, although I try to spare you my drowning on about spiritual matters and new Bible findings. I think I'm learning a great deal right now on who God is and really find meaning in studying scripture and actually knowing that it happened. That God is alive today, which I think is one of the christian's biggest questions, and He still can do everything He did and He still will, we are just the ones that have pushed Him out and made Him appear lesser than He is. I went to a small group yesterday for the church and the leaders were less than qualified to instruct. It really saddened me, and each time I would speak up most of the people in the group looked at me with eyes of confusion and bewilderment. It's a lonely state to not be understood in life as I find often, but what a great knowledge to know that God created me, knit me together in my mother's womb, and who can fathom His understanding? He knows what I'm trying to say, He knows what I so desperately want out of life. He knows one of my greatest fears is that I won't be used to fully glorify Him, that His purpose for me is not great, He knows! I've come on this journey to New Zealand to fulfill another part of my life experience and in many ways I'm better for it. I dare not act like I've gained a great deal of knowledge, because that is not the point of life, but I say that I've learned how much I have yet to learn and how long a journey I have yet to travel to gain the victory that is found in Christ Jesus alone.
