New Zealand Adventures

A rather exciting thing happened to me yesterday. I've felt recently like I have life block, you know, like writer's block but applied to all of life. I have so much to say with all the thoughts and realizations that enter my head all the time, but recently I've felt unable to really communicate what I actually mean, whether written or verbal. It's been frusterating to a degree, until yesterday when I read a friend's blog. You see I had this conversation with her last week about singlehood. I was so desperately trying to offer her the advice that God has graciously given to me, but the words were coming out broken and seemed indiscernible. We went on in the discussion and it irritated me for a few days that the point I was trying to get across didn't seem to come out, in my mind. Crazy thing that happened was reading her blog and realizing she got my exact point and although I was acredited, it was wonderful to realize I, being me Katie, didn't give her any words of wisdom or speak eloquently, but God allowed her to hear what she needed. We worry so much about setting a good example and making people know we're Christians, but if we are, they'll know; if we're true and faithful, they'll know. If we care, they'll know. It's not the act of trying and doing, it's being. If we try to speak wisdom, care, love, give, or whatever, we'll fail. BUT if we focus our lives on God and learn who He is, we begin to give Him everything- our lives, friends, family, our moments, our joys and failures. When we learn that God is love, THEN we are able to speak wisdom, care, give etc as byproducts of the love of God. I've had this "do the fruits of the spirit" and love everyone because that's what you're supposed to do as a Christian mindset most of my life- it's wrong. You can't. To be called a Christian and not read scripture, pray, or follow God's laws, is in my opinion, at this point in my life, ignorantly thinking we can widen the narrow road to heaven. There it is, controversy out in the open. Take your best shot. :)

"I will call upon you, for you will answer me, O God; incline your ear to me; hear my words." psalm 17:6. "I was blameless before Him... the God who equipped me with strength and made my way blameless." psalm 18:23a,32. Maybe the key to loving one another lies not in our effort but in our faith in a God who is able to make our ways blameless....discuss amongst yourselves.